Altered Perceptions

"Why don't you like me anymore?  You think I'm bad. You ate treating me badly. You have to let me finish what I started."

And what is it you need to finish?

"When I married you..."

Oh, but you have finished it.

Nabal had to tell me the story of Jacob.  (A very bad bible boy.) So he could lecture me on God's forgiveness. He told me I think he's bad.  Bad because I 'thought' he was messing with a bunch of women.  But he was not. 

I had to laugh.  If I hadn't seem the proof... I'd be feeling bad.  Nabal informed me that,  "it wasn't as bad as I remember any of it. "

Again,  if I didn't have pictures,  forwards, and my own writing as proof.

He tried to tell me he was just doing what I did in my 20's... and I wasn't there to help him through it... What?

Oh,  in my 20's...I wasn't married!

He just came downstairs. "This is not over!" (Very angry tone) If he goes, he'll take the kids.  I'll be sorry. So much 'we' never taught them. 

He just finished telling a visiting friend of the kids... how dark he is.  Just crazy drunk crap.

Yeah,  he's going to get unbearable.  He feels slighted.  He feels he deserves unlimited chances. Only one night home this week, and I just don't want to be here. 

He asked where I lived again. I told him- atop a mountain. He's trying to figure out if he could appear one night and ask around.  He once asked if there were many Spanish there. Nope. He asked why wouldn't I invite him up for some loving. He's trying to figure a way to drop in on me.  I live in the wilderness.  Even with an address, gps will only bring you within miles.  I may need to cut and run from my job.  That, is easy to find. I'll head further into the sticks and find a new job. I'm pretty dang marketable. Even in the sticks.

My girl told me he's still hunting for information on the conversation with Mary.  Caught in his own net I'd say.