Friday, August 24, 2012

Taking Stock

Just trying to fall asleep and thinking. Maybe not thinking, but things just pop up. I am...sad, angry. Plain unhappy, depressed. And let's not forget scared witless all the time. Nabal is my husband for the interim (I hope) and my boy has decided not to talk to me. He looks at me like I have done something awful. Smug hatred. Won't even look at me, and for the life of me I don't know why. He's passed judgement on something I have done or he thinks I have down... He's not talked to my girl in months because he doesn't approve of her. Thanks Nabal for teaching him women just don't matter. They forgive another man anything, but women? To be judged, guilty or not. I pray he grows out of this. Funny, he got the brunt of Nabal's abuse yet Nabal actually taught him to disregard women and that's what he took away. That and his anger. He has a bank account and is in line for a pretty good job. I guess he doesn't have any more reasons to have to be nice to me. Yes, sad and depressed.

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