Monday, August 13, 2012

Monday

The good thing is I have been working so steady! I'm still not pulling the money I should be bringing in... I need to push my learning curve and really get into web exposure. Probably a mental block, old dog, new trick sort of thing. I need to go fight! A friend who has a way with words made a statement that truly struck a chord and stuck with me: David trusted God with his all, yet he  went out and fought his battles. He didn't sit around figuring the God would take care of 'everything' for him. He consulted, he listened, and he acted.

The stress- I just hate looking at Nabal's face. His lying face. He's super drunk. He comes to tell me of a debate he had about salvation with Hector... Really don't want to discuss anything with a drunk...much less scripture and doctrine. He was all about the semantics of losing salvation and walking away. Finally came down to he is a once saved, always saved position now. Which I do understand. Especially when he slipped and confessed that his buddy was telling Nabal he needed to be concerned about his spiritual health with all his activities. "Why can't people just leave me alone about what I do?" He says. Then he bragged to me that he preached the sermon this last Sunday... WHAT?? Well...that answers why people in the church who know about his drinking and womanizing are concerned. Then again..it's not like it's the only church in the city, or even Spanish church. So, just why are these people still there? Maybe the guy is his friend and really cares about his spiritual health. So, he goes on to say that he can never do more than God lets him do... Free will? He says noooo, as a child of God, God will prevent him from doing anything that upsets God... Wow...so...now everything he can get away with has been rubber stamped by God? Making a gospel to please his itching ears... Do not talk doctrine with drunks. 

My stand on salvation? Simple: can't skip along and lose it, but you can willfully walk away from it. And yes, God does warn in many ways. Yes he does try to stop you, but with free will you can ignore Him and plow right ahead. I do not believe that whatever you do, when you go against what He has already warned is wrong. You can walk away. Can you come back- yes! 

So then he tells me he has the power to pray anything for me so what do I want... Yeah... nothing, but thanks.

Gosh...he left his beer can here. I am so tired of them laying all over the house. ALANON: Don't clean up a drunk's mess!

Nabal brought the computer to me yesterday before he went to church. Wanted me to open up his email account so he could check his emails. I've left all his emails from Match.com right there. He has not complained about them. He complained about the Zoosks emails he signed up for when he first got on FaceBook. Claimed it was a mistake... He forgets I have been on FB for a few years! Well, just before he went to preach his sermon at the Spanish church service...he checked out a few picks they sent him. Really? He was pretty quiet after that. I don't even bother confronting him anymore as he just figures ways to be more sneaky. He is never repentant, only tries to explain why I forced him to act in such a way. He does at times apologize, but only as a means to an end. Never from the heart or with any thought that he has done anything wrong. He's just tried to many ways to justify his actions. Blames me, blames his mom. Wow...no blame for his dad? oh yeah, only women are slutty, men are just pushed to retaliation. NOT!

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