I've decided to definitely see a lawyer... My anxiety level just skyrocketed. I feel weepy. Shaky. Sad. I don't believe it's because I'm sad over the marriage gone bad. That happened years ago..many lies ago. I'm fearful of the outcome. I'm fearful of what Nabal will do to keep his reality a reality.
He's, and I believe he really is believing his own stories, trying to make me feel responsible for him. If he's hurt he wants me to heal him instead of going to the doctor. If I give up my job and run his company- we could be wealthy. We could rule the world. When I do this..it's highly possible that he will see me a destroying 'his' world. How desperate will that make him? Would he, could he get to: If he can't use me...no one will. If I'm useless to him...I have no other reason to breath air. Would he rather 'we' die together?
I'm scared out of my wits...but this has all dragged out far too long.
I know practically for fact that if Mary or any if these other women really did more than talk; allowed him to 'make' sex with them. He'd be gone without a trace. I can only believe what I've already seen. When he thought one would give in...he told me he was leaving because he had better places to be.
Of course he may have been trying to tame my independence since he believes it's his right to have as many women as he chooses...while keeping a wife at home. (after all his uncle did)
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