Real Time

"You're having sex with someone else." Stumbling drunk Nabal said as more a statement than a question. Emphatic no. "you know you've let me down, but I'm willing to forgive you." (sounds like a limited time offer from a cheap furniture store...)

"Oh no, I got drunk...I'm supposed to preach tomorrow night. What can I do? What you think about that? I'm sorry I drank baby."

I flipped a little- Back to the same old ground. You've always accused me, yet you were the one who actually was running around.

Funny, he didn't even try to defend that. Too drunk to think fast. So he just kept to his script.

"I'm willing to forgive you. I want you back to be mine all mine. Even though you let me down a long time ago." (never did say he'd be mine. Hmmm, sounds like property.)

"I want to play with your p**sy. Can I?" He giggles, hands moving. He tries for my breasts.

Off ether deep end I went! I made it to assertive and specific. Inside I felt like a kid following the instructions of yelling NO and backing away when in stranger danger. Oddest things come to mind... His laughing reply, "I can touch them I'd I want, they are all mine."

Why did he say that? I'm not property! That crap went out 150 years ago. I'd give him his $30 for the marriage certificate!

(This is what scares me: what is property? At most basic understanding it is something owned. So therefore it has an owner. Property is something you can pretty much do with as you see fit, unless there is some preceding condition of ownership. Property is something owned until the owner decided to replace it, or dispose of it in some manner. Let's say one is tired of ones old car. One goes car shopping and realizes one doesn't have resources to replace said old one. Reluctantly you drive the old one until it is unfixable. People aren't cars! But, people who see others as property see their right to 'keep' a person is a life long right- until the owner has procured new property. Then they still may reserve the right of supervise. (or own more than one) In short property isn't at liberty to choose if an owner is in some way unfit, or if they can be free. It's a clinging cloying, cold feeling.)

"You must have someone else! Why would you want to give up on us if not?!"

Really! Really! Your behavior isn't enough?! You flatter yourself! (and why is thus always the go to?!)

"I drink because you're not with me."

Oh no! Your not heaping thus on me. Its your choice.

Oh my gosh! Nabal called and I lost almost all I'd written... Grrr...

Nabal us trying to get debt points with us. Wanting date nights. Wanting to take or girl on a shipping spree to a high end store. (or at least hoping the mention of it will garner compliance. My kids informed me Nabal never carried through on his promises years ago. Sad)

All so we will go/make an appearance at this new church to support his wolf in sheep's clothing act. He wants to hold a debt. Just like the slippery slimy guy who takes you on a date. Wines you and dines you, then turns into something ugly when you won't immediately sleep with him. You owe him! NOT!