Tuesday

Self fulfilling prophecies, and the men who create them. Nabal calls this morning right at the crucial time of herding everyone out the door and to school. Our boy can't sleep and is always dragging in the morning. Our girl isn't a morning person. I answered and he says, "Hey Lady! (with a smile) get a pen and paper and write this down. Are you ready?" I told him that i was trying to move out the door so no one would be late... So, after I get back I call and he goes into his whine, "I get the impression that you don't want to deal with me anymore." Aside from the fact that that is absolutely true, I do engage for the company. He does this all the time. If I tell him I'll be working he'll call every single time. If I give him hours I'll be out of reach he'll come up with some 'emergency' at the exact same time. The outcome is that- I never answer his calls, I'm not willing to help, I purposefully ignore him, I need to be a team player. He expects life to be dropped when he needs something. I believe they are really test set forth by him that are guaranteed to fail and he has a platform. Much like the platform he was working off of this past Saturday. As we left for our boy's soccer game Nabal was working on his truck, drunk. He has a big F250 and he's 5' 4. He was standing on a folding card table chair that he keeps outside for he and his buddies when they drink. On that was precariously perched an old metal drawer set about a foot in height. As we drove away all I could think was, "There's an accident waiting to happen..." This is our boy's last year of high school. He wants to go into the military next June and still Nabal won't go to his soccer games. When he does all he does is criticize him for not making a goal. The boy is defense and damn good at it! He keeps the other team out, many times by himself. He's revered on all the teams he's on, yet all his dad sees is that he doesn't make goals... Ass! In one way it's better that he doesn't go, but it hurts the boy either way. Nabal would go last year when the boy played on a men's team but would leave if the game wasn't 'good' as he only really likes to look at pro games. It's all about him. If he isn't entertained than he won't go or stay anywhere. All about him. Has he ever done anything purely for someone else? The more I think the more I doubt it.

He has jobs and money coming in. He never counts the monthly bills... I'm getting closer to a job locally! I can not wait for the day when all his money will be his! I won't have to touch a penny.