Monday

Maybe the worst day yet. My boy is mad angry. Got 2 more holes in the wall ad everything but threatening his sister's life. She is so depressed I'm more than worried because I believe she's trying to self medicate. Daddy's little girl is treating depression as he does. I'm very worried because I've heard she's in with some heavy drug users, way past weed. My son on the other hand got caught in the posting remarks on FB which someone saw and showed to his girlfriend and told her it was directed at her. Girlfriend went to my girl  crying. Girl gave girlfriend a shoulder to cry on then broke up with my boy via text. (confused yet?) His side and reason to place blame is his sister- he thought she showed girlfriend the posts (in reality he found out some guy where they work showed her) So then he says my girl told girlfriend to break up with him. My girl denies this. I think she's an easy target. Told him she was trying to be a friend to the girl, sister is 16, girlfriend is 20. Maybe she did throw my girl under the bus to deflect anger. Told her today to never get between him and another girlfriend unless and until she's way older. Oh God...just 6 short months!

I have been asking people to pray for our family. Maybe everything has to break loose. Don't mind saying its all frightening. He is trying to blunt pain with bravado. Talking about wanting to kill the offending man. I told him to not use an ax to kill a fly. He's saying he won't mind doing time for the slight. He may end up there he is so angry simply a powder keg. Everything in this house is a powder keg. I just don't see any good end.

What is Nabal doing in all this? He is either clueless or pretending cluelessness. None of us would dream of telling him as he can turn a powder keg over and light the match then walk around justifying why whatever he did was reasonable. He can turn a bad situation horrible in a second.

Was talking to another parent today and she was telling me how nasty it would get once I made it clear I was done and the marriage was over. I know she's right. At present he is turning on the charm so by then...all my fault. I will see nasty I have never seen before. That's what makes me dread the freedom.

Called in a lot of prayer today. Started on some knitting I needed to start to dampen brain chatter.