Thursday

Yesterday was the first Wednesday in forever that Nabal wasn't drunk. Guess Monday and Tuesday did him in... Well seems Sunday night ( or was it Saturday was an all night prayer vigil at his church. Heard him on the phone telling someone and I do understand he's liar enough to have faked it, but I dont want to be completely paranoid.

I found out he's not only stalking Mary's FB, but mine and my girl's too. I've hidden a lot because he gets on and makes comments that appear as if he's a devoted husband even as he's trolling Mary's pictures. I'm so lucky to know the back story... Oh and he spent an hour accessing Match.com from FB only because 1. He can't figure how to get there from his browser all the time and 2. He doesn't realize that his friends on computers can see him. Oh well...

Don't know if I mentioned: The other night when he was drunk and wanting to open his email to get correspondences sent from a company, I showed him again how to open his email account. He never opened either letter from them but the emails about women that Match.com sent him. He was checking out local women they thought he'd match up with. I asked him the next day what the emails said and he said, "I couldn't open anything up so I gave up." like I said back story knowledge is more than valuable! He actually sounded quite annoyed over technology he could not master... Subterfuge...

Me... I'm so floating along and need to figure a way to get work in another adjacent area where there are not so many who have the same profession as I do... Also I'm leaning in a different direction as they do locally. I love my truck, but I need something smaller, easier on has and a little newer for everyday commuting. I only need my truck if they are calling for snow. I'm looking at at least an hour commute any way I go. I'll have to wait till graduation as I can't count on anyone else and said child hangs with too many pot heads to be left all on their own without policing. My eldest is so sometimie,  some days not speaking. Really can't wait until that one gets on their feet. Living at homecontributing nothing, yet acting like an adult and at times hostile. Mabal's legacy. My graduate wants to motor across the US if the money is there. Odd a lot of people are shifting this year in and out so I'll see in June. Maybe I can find something with the same schedule and we can ride together and get out of this environment. I can out enough together to further my studies and get out of here. Lord be my helper I won't have to pass another winter hers. I'll be able to rent my house and go live elsewhere and Nabal can do what he wants and not have to lie to me about it. Of course he'll fine someone else to lie to, but hey, not my problem!

What does hurt is walking away from old friends because I don't want to burden them and some don't want to be burdened. I get it, I think I'm coming out of a period where I was draining. I still need to pay someone to listen that will hie me feedback. Like stop talking and get out of there, and constructive ass kicking. Old friends muddy the waters and cloud reasoning because I miss them, setting up doubt as to my reasons for leaving this situation. Or is my mind just looking for the path of least resistance? Guess I'll see as I put distance between important people.