Friday

I'm officially getting confused. Nabal is acting normal. I know what he does that he thinks I don't have a clue of. I know he is putting up a front to suck me back in. I have a forgiving nature and I know it's being played upon. I have gotten so used to 'getting over' bad behavior... I had a good work day, maybe I'm just tired. I also had to, in the middle of it all help Nabal order some material. I'm starting to fee sorry for him. Maybe it's part of his plan. He has been trying to make me feel responsible for him. It's weird, he still comes and goes without a word when he feels like it, yet comes and announces that he's going to take a shower. He then stands there like he's awaiting my approval. He even at times repeats himself and asks me is that ok. He is trying to make me feel as if he's a son? It would be a young son... My 17 year old doesn't act like that. I've got to hold on to the truths I know. So many phases he's gone through. Maybe he's just finally hit on one that affects me. It would be dumb luck and make sense that one in a hundred should work. I think I've been conditioned all my life to forgive bad behavior then forget it. Especially with family. Funny, as I think about that favor has not been extended to me very often in life. I really try not to throw things in peoples faces to score points. Me? It usually gets piled on, at times exaggerated. Whatever... I haven't tasted forgiveness very often at all. I guess proof Karma is just imagination. Some days I'm sure God's the only one who I'll get forgiveness from. Went upstairs and Nabal asks why I don't turn the AC on... number one he's been here as long as I have, but two is more important. I asked if he'd opened the windows. Nope! Then he comments that the screen is ratty. Gee! Been that way 3 years... I used to keep up with it before I went back to school. He got cute about an outlet last week. It was upside down. I let him know it sat broken for almost 3 years and I put it in. If he cared so much he could turn it. He shut up.