Monday

Well, Nabal had a wonderful weekend. He went to a revival, everyone thinks he is pastor of his church, he laid a trip on us that if we didn't help him and support him in building his church it would fail, he got so hungry after church that he drank, he now has 2 pictures on his phone sent to him by some woman out in Denver that he has marked CM on his phone. Both photos are accompanied by cute little love songs... Oh yeah, when I was coming out of prayer I caught him coming out of the gas station where the girl he was caught in the motel with works and he was calling her last night. He is such a busy boy! Funny- he went to sleep with his phone under his pillow. So in the middle of the night I found it! Uploaded photos and now they are posted on my alter ego facebook. Just happened to check the calls log. Seems the shell girl was unavailable. Oh Lord, please let this all hang together until I can carry the financial burden.

I looked at one of the 'Jillian Michaels Moves In' shows last night and realized i, we are that family. That family lost husband and father in death- we lost ours to alcohol. We have given up, lost all hope. Our life, our frustrations, and our home reflects it. I have to get my fight back! If I don't no one will and we will all be floundering around until Nabal drinks himself to death or leaves for a 'better woman' I've got to want more and better for my children.

He is such a liar- this morning (from about 4 am on) Nabal was searching for his phone. In the middle of the night he lied and said he had a stomach ache and that's why he was so restless. He was trying to search under the bed in the dark. LOL! I told him to pray and God would help him find the phone. (I really do that and God is faithful in the small things.) Boy was he annoyed- he knew why he hid the phone and God was not going to help with his dishonesty. We tried calling it, it was on vibrate and it took him forever to find it under all the covers. He had to delete the call log entries, and he was waiting for his return call from 825-6728. He is also talking to a desperate little woman who has problems with a disobedient daughter. He is gonna overstep somewhere, I hope he will listen to the Spirit and turn but he seems to think he has special dispensation from God and can do as he pleases. Nabal, tragic figure whether in the Bible or in real life.