Dysfunction In The Alcahome

Got home and say in the car taking in my front yard: Grass out of control. Shrubs out of control. Weeds way out of control! Yes, an alcoholic lives here...

But he did have time to buy another junk car this week! For the kids to drive you know. A real teen car- a 1996 Park Avenue... Thank you for purchasing a gas guzzling hooptie! He's do status conscious... He originally wanted a Jaguar for them...

So last night I asked Nabal if we had any gas. He asked my why I wanted to know. Like if a kid were asking a personal question. "To cut the grass." I answered. He got strangely quiet... I should have known...

Got up early this morning before the heat and searched all over for the lawnmower. Nada. Called Nabal and he gave me a convoluted conversation about the guy down the street. The kids said they heard it was broken and Nabal was ranting about it one night when he was drunk.  He ended by saying he would weed wack the grass once he got home. Weed wack just short of a half acre?!? So I pulled out my hedge trimmers that I hide. (The only way I keep it serviceable) Got the front done, doing with sweat. One could hardly get out the back door the bushes were so wild.

We had a flea problem. Evidently I'm the only one who can buy the good stuff. It got out of hand as 'cheaper' stuff was explored. At this point it would have been cheaper to buy the best stuff, what with the money spent exploring. I had stuff to kill fleas from lady year's similar debacle, but how would an alcoholic remember that far back? Do he bought that too. It it's still down. Oh, unless it's a shop vac...it's women's work! Yeah...I'll get that stuff up...before we breath it all in!

How drunks cost their families: They break stuff through drunken carelessness. They cook massive amounts of food while drunk, which no one wants to eat, do it's all thrown away. They buy junk. If there's not money to pay bills, somehow they 'find' money for their hooch. They destroy good stuff because it gets left outside when they pass out. Nothing ever gets fixed until it's doing damage. Or fix something so half assed that it may as well be broken. When one can only use a lawnmower of one has knowledge of mechanical workings then one can't expect mere teens to be able to help! Also if said machine is only steps away from being a death trap unless you have a lifetime of working with heavy machinery behind you- it is useless to a family!

There you have it. How the mental deterioration of alcoholism costs a family. I'm setting a new bathroom faucet today, it's been leaking almost a year. I think it's time. Nabal couldn't find washers. Heck it's been there 15+ years. I think we're allowed a new one!

I'm so tired. Some days I look around and just get more tired.