Friday

Not a bad day, a church day so Nabal is abstaining. I was again working and could not have calls. He didn't have money and forgot the water. He called me 3 times. The water cooler was, last I saw it used to cool beer bottles. This is his day to take a break from drinking. Well, at least for the last few weeks and is drink Gatorade. Young Pablo had his truck taken away because of a suspended license. That boy was born and raised here yet is straining to be a true Mexican. So Nabal had to go and search to find out where it was and get it back for him. He really takes care of those he loves... Or is it those that show adoration... He acts so normal sometimes, but I have come to realize that act is the operative word here.

Well... I was oh, so, wrong. So since Nabal is not drinking he fell asleep early. Had his cell on the night stand. I left the room and returned in 5 minutes or so and it was gone. He was supposedly asleep... Probably under his pillow again. So, drunk or sober, church or not. Funny I wasn't going to check up on it tonight. One he is sober and fully functioning (aside from his dope smoking) so he will erase. And two, each day he is sober I really still do have hope that it will stick and that he will change. Why am I still so gullible if just in the back of my mind. I personally can't get over what has happened in all these years, but he was once, I guess, a good guy. He has stuck around for all these years. So I hope he can pull out of this. He does not have to be his mother, alone, grasping and greedy. Another reason we all need to be away from the day to day. I learned long ago that it is no use hating anyone. You harbor all the emotion, you handle all the stress, you are stuck while the object of your hate is off enjoying life. Not thinking about you. So with that emotion reserved only for the pervs of this world I tend to life and let live. Forget injustices pretty easily and react to people as they present themselves. This is trouble when it comes to liars. Not my forte...